It’s Your Life, You Choose!!!
Monday, November 23rd, 2009How many times in your life do you remember thinking that everything was out of your control? I can remember too many times to list here. All too often I would just say to myself that I was being flexible and “going with the flow”, but I was seriously deluding myself. It just kept me from making a decision to commit to something that I would probably just end up ruining. It was such a life-preserving pattern that was apparently keeping me safe. The only problem was, it wasn’t. In the Military, I was so flexible that I was called upon to do things that others wouldn’t. I saw this as being of service and eventually I would be rewarded for it. This never happened, but what did happen was that I constantly expected to rise to the occasion, a type of performance punishment, until I was totally burnt out. That was a very scary day indeed. I had seen myself as most Military people see themselves, six-foot tall and bulletproof, but on this day I was just over five foot tall and not even waterproof. That was the day that I owned up to my depression. It would be over one and a half years before I would feel secure enough to own anything or even take responsiblity for any aspect of my life. My depression consumed every aspect of my life and numbed me from my harsh reality. I guess that if I had been able to really feel the pain of my life, the outcome would have been a very different one. Maybe it was that numbness that helped me on to my spiritual path. The thoughts such as “I have nothing left to lose…” and “they already think the worst of you…” were main players in my search for alternative treatment. I used ThetaHealing™ to not only get me out of depression but to continually change my negative, ineffectual beliefs as they presented themselves, into positive, empowering beliefs that allowed me to take responsibility of my own life and ultimately my own reality. This has made a massive difference in my life to the extent that my compensation claim for major depression was actually rejected because the Military Specialist could see no evidence of depression. I had done so much work on changing beliefs and healing myself that I didn’t receive any monetary compensation. Was I upset at this? Absolutely, but I had two choices, either fight for what I thought that I was entitled to, or take it as a compliment that I did some awesome healings and get on with my life. And that is exactly what I chose to do! So what do you choose in your life? Do you merely survive or do you thrive? Who is responsible for your life? If the answer does not have your name in it, you have some work to do.
Love and Gratitude,
Pauline Longdon
ThetaHealing™ Master
ThetaHealing™ Certificate of Science
